New Lifestyle

For quite sometime I have been struggling with eating and body image, something I might go into detail in the future. I have recently started working out, however this time instead of working out to become this unobtainable goal of "skinny" I had consumed myself with, I promised myself that I would change my mindset. 

Instead of running like a cardio bunny everyday for hours and hours on end I decided that I needed to change my outlook on fitness and health. I was so obsessed with my own idea of beautiful, fit, skinny, etc. that I completely lost sight of what fitness is really about. 

Recently I researched macros and IIFYM, something I have seen in the past, but never really took any real interest in it. I'm still experimenting with this type of lifestyle of "tracking", but my main goal for this lifestyle of flexible dieting was to mentally prepare myself and reassure (yes I am this afraid of food, especially carbs) myself that food is my okay, food is fuel and energy, food will help me build the best version of myself.

 I will admit that I am still afraid of carbs and overeating, but I am slowly working my way into reintroducing more carbs and "bad foods" into my daily lifestyle. It's been a real struggle I will admit making myself a piece of whole wheat toast with peanut butter and cinnamon still shakes me up a little bit and I immediately have this urge to go straight to the gym and do cardio, but now I can have that piece of bread and relax and know that I have earned this or I will need this to fuel my body and help it heal or grow.

So far I have incorporated HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training) into my routine along with weight lifting a lot more during the week, while attempting to de-load on my cardio sessions. In order to cut down on the hours of cardio I used to put myself though I try these high intensity circuits, which only take up to 30 minutes max and I'm literally sweating my face off and I feel great and accomplished after. With training in this way I look forward to these intense, but SHORT sessions and building a stronger, leaner, BETTER body for myself. 

This kind of went off on a tangent, but I have seen more of an improvement in my body the past three weeks of HIIT and weight training then I have for an entire year of intense cardio work. 

I'm becoming happy, make a change in your life too my loves. X